tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9033718057670720243.post7578069237900918752..comments2023-07-18T10:21:41.193-05:00Comments on PHOBIA: Living in Constant Fear: Cholerophobia: The Fear of CholeraAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18195461992602534850noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9033718057670720243.post-58509412878415763052012-01-26T11:53:11.134-06:002012-01-26T11:53:11.134-06:00Fear is , I'd say, the biggest emotion in my l...Fear is , I'd say, the biggest emotion in my life. Funny thing is, I also consider myself an eternal optimist. I am afraid whenever the phone rings. My imperfections turn into extreme guilt on an irrational level. I have a hard time with any relationship that has shown true anger. Especially any yelling. I shut down and isolate and would rather chock off relationship than ever face anger again. In my isolation. Guilt about isolation and fear of angry judgement feeds the circle and isolates me even more. Basically if you have raised your voice at me. I do anything to avoid all contact out of pure terror. Then I fear that call every day. Same with any disappointment I may cause others. I'm filled with remorse and guilt. That makes my fear worse too.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com